Square one

MashaAllah.
Such beauties,
still exist,
but I'm still afraid,
afraid of going through,
the same old process,
of having caraphernelia.

I'm tired,
but as a person,
I still need one who,
I could lean on,
I could go home to,
I could converse with,
I could complain to.

I wish I could be the one,
the one who,
she cherishes.

I know,
I'm far from being a man,
a man who could guide you,
who could protect you,
who could make you feel,
that you're home,
all the time.

But God's willing,
I'll give it all,
all for you.

If this feelings are true,
I'm willing to fight for it,
till we see through,
inshaAllah.

Dejavu

It seems that it happened again,
What wrong have I done?

Ya Allah, save and protect,
those who were once,
close to me,
but had left,
and shut me out,
for who knows,
what reasons,
for all I know,
I wish for them,
to be happy,
to be blessed,
for all the kindness,
that they had given,
while our friendship lasted.

Amin.

Rupture

Sometimes I..
I wish I was cooler,
I wish I was calmer,
In your pursue,
We had a weird bond,
A bond that I have,
With none other,
Other than you.

I missed those times,
When we had an agreement,
Even arguments seem sweet,
Cos' those were times,
Which I miss most.

I regret not,
Having this feelings,
For you,
But I regret,
To not be given a chance,
To continue our weird bond,
As mere friends.

My heart,
It bleeds,
When the thoughts of you appear,
Slowly healing,
To an extent where,
It seems those wounds healing,
Causes more pain,
When it starts to bleed,
Time after time.

I miss you.